Don’t expect more from a person than they are capable and you won’t be let down. Fully rely on God with all your heart for he is love, joy, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Gal. 5:22). Man will always fall short of the glory of God because we are flawed. Dont rely on another for happiness that can only be found in Abba father. While man is full of sin, a lustful heart, greed, pride, and the ability to hurt one another God is love and always the same. He is our refuge. Fully rely on God in all things and you will be made whole.


A Testimony During My Cancer Experience

I have decided to blog about my personal experience with cancer. Since it is the one thing that has turned my life upside down. Five years ago I was touched by cancer and it rocked my world. I was diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma of the head and neck. The drs. didn’t give me a good prognosis and told me it would be a miracle if I survived. My immediate response was, “You don’t know my Jesus and I don’t have an expiration date stamped on the bottom of my foot.” And so I chose to believe I would survive. I did and I am here to spread hope to all other people who endure cancer and other life challenges.

I am an artist and a visual person. Pictures make a story more real. I am sharing the following pictures not for you sympathy but so you can see how real cancer is and how far I have come becasue of my faith in God. These pictures are my during and after cancer pictures.

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I would like to share about a particular story that was a serious turning point in my battle with cancer. I had chemo and a fifteen hour surgery to remove three fourths of my tongue and a muscle graft from my leg to my throat. (Then, radiation and more chemo to follow up the chemo and surgery.) I was in a lot of pain and couldn’t speak. Cancer is a lonely disease anyway but my inability to speak made me feel lost inside myself. My ex-husband (husband at the time) lacked compassion for me when I needed it most. So as he was impatient with my lack of speech I felt scared and began to wonder if I would ever speak again. I had a two hour trip to Nashville for a follow up after my surgery. I spent that two hour trip in tears and praying for God to give me a special message. I wanted him to answer me thorough a Dr or a person and tell me everything would be okay. I wanted to know I would speak again. The drs. told me that was a possibility, that I wouldn’t speak again. This was heavy on my heart. And so I asked God for a special message or for him to speak to me in a way I knew it was from him.

I made it to Vanderbilt in Nashville. The two hour trip felt like twelve. I cried and prayed the whole two hours there. After finding the ortolaryngology clinic I sat in the waiting room and prayed and cried some more. A woman across the room kept staring at me. I was used to this at this point. People stare when they see a cancer patient. Maybe the lack of hair, the scarf over my head or the NG tube hanging out my nose (used to feed me after my surgery.) I didn’t mind it at this point. She got up and slowly walked across the room to me. I had a notebook and pen in my lap. She asked to see it and began to write. This was unusual because most people just spoke to me but she wrote in my notebook. She said she was one of my Dr’s first patients and she told me I would be okay. She told me she felt compelled by God to tell me I would speak again one day. She was one of Dr. Burkeys first patients fifteen years ago. She reassured me of everything I asked God to reveal to me on the way there. She also confirmed she felt God tell her to get up, walk across the room, and deliver this message to me. God is great all the time. He revealed things like this to me throughout my illness. I will share more of these things in ‘Me and my journey.’

No matter how strong you are there are times in your life when you wont be strong enough to carry yourself through that moment. In those moments I leaned on God and found I made it. I couldn’t have done it on my own. Trust Him and lean into Him when you feel helpless. He will endure for you.

Healthy Hair and Skin

The best source of vitamins for hair loss and graying prevention and skin reproduction and to prevent cellular damage is deriven naturally through food and a healthy diet.

Biotin (a b-vitamin)- Lack of biotin leads to hair loss split ends and causes nails to become brittle and break. Biotin makes hair and skin healthy.

  • Lentils (beans), carrots, nuts, berries, avocado, eggs, soybeans

Vitamin A– Aids in the production of sebum. Sebum is produced by hair follicles and makes hair healthy. It also aids in the reproduction of cells for healthy skin.

  • carrots, fish oil, spinach, broccoli

Vitamin C– Healthy for hair and skin, prevents cellular damage, and boosts the immune system. It helps scalp circulation which helps the blood vessels that feed the hair follicules (thus creating healthy hair follicles).

  • oranges, lemons, grapefruit, strawberries, tomatoes, broccoli, blueberries, kale, swiss chard

Vitamin E– Makes hair healthy and shinny. Is also key in producing healthy skin cells.

  • sweet potatoes, nuts, avocados, broccoli, leafy green vegetables

Bs– Good for scalp circulation. It keeps hair strong and full. It also creates the skins youthful elasticity.

  • Avocado,

B5– prevents hair loss and gray hair.

Omega 3s- Stops and prevents inflammation (which leads to cellular damage and cancer). Helps the body make new healthy cells.

  • salmon, sardines, flax seed oil or ground flax seed, walnuts, sunflower seeds, almonds

Selenium– Prevents free-radical damage or cellular damage (preventing cancer).

  • Wheat germ, salmon, tuna, garlic, Brazil nuts, eggs, brown rice

Iron– carries oxygen to the skin and hair follicles.

  • lentils (beans), red meat, eggs, dark green vegetables, chicken, turkey, artichokes

Protein– Keeps hair strong. Hair is mostly protein. Protects and makes the skin healthy.

  • lentils (beans), red meat, turkey, chicken, eggs

Omega 3s– Good for the scalp and keeps the scalp and hair hydrated. This prevents breakage and makes hair both shinny and healthy. Helps prevent inflammation(which leads to cancer) and makes skin healthy. It promotes cellular turnover or reproduction of cells.

  • ground flax seed, fish oil, nuts, salmon

Selinium– contains cancer fighting antioxidants and prevents free radicals (cancer producing agents) from further cellular damage.

  • garlic, Brazil nuts, eggs, brown rice

Protein– Hair is made of protein and needs protein to grow and stay healthy. Skin needs protein to make new healthy cells.

  • meat, lentils, poultry

Beta Carotene– Your body turns this into vitamin A. Cells and hair need vitamin A to function properly.

  • sweet potatoes, kale, carrots, turnip greens, butternut squash, collard greens

Vitamin D– Dairy (milk and yogurt) aid in hair strength and hair skin and nails growth. The good enzymes found in yogurt are good for digestive health.

  • milk, yogurt, cottage cheese, dairy products

Lycopene– An antioxidant which is great for cellular damage prevention.

  • tomatoes

Healthy Advise

  • Use an SPF of 30 or higher in the sun. Protect yourself from those harmful UV rays. They cause skin aging and wrinkles.
  • Use retinoids on your skin as a regular regiment. Retinoids help produce collagen, clear up acne, unplug pores, and reduce lines and wrinkles
  • Exercise increases blood circulation, boosts endorphins, and helps reduce stress and depression. This reduces wrinkles, and boosts the immune system for over-all good health.
  • Get at least 8-9 hours of sleep. A well rested body can function better and improved the functioning of the immune system. It prevents rapid aging. Good sleep produces hormones that help in the production of collegian and helps the functioning of your cells.
  • Enjoy life with a hobby or something that makes you happy. This promotes good health, healthy hair skin and nails by lessening acne, eczema, rosacea, and wrinkles. It aids in the good hormonal reproduction your body needs. Eat healthy, relax, and enjoy life.

To worship another is to do them an injustice. There is only one God. I love this.

Source of Inspiration

one god

No not bow before the unworthy.
There is only One deserving of
your devotion; all others have
feet of clay. Do not put them
on pedestals for surely they
will fall. You do them an injustice
when you give them undeserved
homage for they can never live up
to your expectations…such a heavy
burden you place upon them.

“Thou shalt have no other gods
before me.”
The Creator is the Source of all.

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Spiritual Gifts

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Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them; if prophecy, in proportion to our faith; if service, in our serving; the one who teaches, in his teaching; the one who exhorts, in his exhortation; the one who contributes, in generosity; the one who leads, with zeal; the one who does acts of mercy, with cheerfulness. Romans 12:6-8

A desire is created by Him in your heart to manifest spiritual gifts to grow his kingdom. Walk in the joy of the Lord. Exercise your spiritual gifts. You are made for a purpose and to feel fulfilled let God use you for the gifts which you were made. Serve with a joyous heart.

God still works miracles. I know because I am one!

Do you believe in miracles? To believe is and act of faith. To believe in current day miracles is proof of our obedience as an act of love for our Heavenly Father. He still works miracles. While some are healed of illness before a chance for treatment to be administered some are healed through treatment or the work of a Dr’s hands. I am living proof of a miracle. My diagnosis of cancer was six years ago. My prognosis was not good. I wasn’t expected to live. I had one of the fastest spreading cancers of the head and neck (squamous cell carcinoma). I prayed for a healing and expected to be healed before I had to undergo chemo, radiation, and surgery to remove most of my tongue and much of the inside of my throat. My healing came in the end. What I didn’t know at the time was the healing I was praying for came in a very unexpected way. After undergoing the treatments and a near death experience I experienced God in such a way I can share Him with many other people today. I am alive and my heart has been forever changed. I was nearly incapable of loving people or myself at the time of my diagnosis. I had a hardened heart. Today, I have an open heart and I am capable of loving again. Through a tough time in my life God drew me near to Him and my life was forever changed. I love again and I am so happy to share my testimony, faith, and love through Christ Jesus. I hope this touches someones heart today. Be blessed!

God Still Speaks to Us.

For those who don’t believe God still speaks to us either audibly, through repetition, His written word, or symbols is at a great disadvantage and is truly missing something great! Why would a father stop speaking to his children? If the Holy Spirit resides in you don’t you think its possible God can speak to you through the Holy Spirit? Have you considered He never quit talking to us but it’s that we stopped listening. Satan, the liar and great deceiver would love for us to believe God stopped talking to us. Refuse to allow Satan to have any glory and give it all to God. Believe and act on faith and see what happens. Something great will happen.

Stress Reliever and chronic pain


I live with chronic pain from treatments preceding cancer of the head and neck. My advice for anyone living with chronic, physical, and or emotional pain is to use your talents God has given you in a way that will help you to enjoy the life He has given you. Life is not perfect. Nor did He promise a perfect life but it is definetly worth it.

Ive found the best form of therapy through using my God-given talents. I enjoy painting, prophetic art, crocheting, making jewelry and photography. After cancer I have found it difficult to return to work with chronic pain. I have found the best setting for relaxation brings forth my best work! When I begin to make anything I first pray over the work that it brings blessings to the one who receives it and I invite God into my home. I open my blinds, light a candle, make coffee, and I begin painting (or crocheting, jewelry making etc…) If I make my setting relaxing and I invite God in my studio while I paint. Because my art becomes a joy through His presence my work is more beautiful.

I opened an etsy shop to help with bills and to support my therapy (talents/habbits.) Please show my shop some love and visit it at Etsy (Its called JillybeansStudio.) I am a new blogger and Im finding this to be a lot of fun. This may be my newest form of therapy as well.

Do what you enjoy and make sure it is pleasing to His Highest! And dont forget the most important of all; pray pray pray!